Chapter 2: ROCK. THE. VOTE.

Monday, September 29, 2008 // 5:01 PM

I can not stress this enough. If you are legal and registered to vote, then VOTE. Stop sitting around, complaining about how this world is a big screw up. Make a difference, make a change, and help our country.

I honestly do not care about who you want to vote for. and i do not care if u hate on me for rooting for Barack Obama. I don't fully believe in republicans vs. democrats. I honestly dont think that it settles down to that. "Oh this person is a republican, im voting for him", and move on with ur life. I personally dont think it should work like that. TAKE THE TIME, and LISTEN WHAT ALL OF THEM HAVE TO SAY, LISTEN TO WHAT THEY CAN OFFER. This country is failing, at this moment in time, and I honestly hope that you guys aren't just sitting back and not caring. This is serious business. No more "Oh, im just in Highschool" crap. All of this economic failure, [bankrupcy, debts, etc] everybody should be afraid. Afraid enough that EVERYBODY will want to help. We aren't babies. You might think that you cant do anything; that all this does not influence you in any way. But honestly, OPEN YOUR EYES. Ask yourself. Do you know how much money we are at loss right now? How much in debt we are? What will you do if we do under go another "Great Depression"? What happens if countries that we are allied with undergo a war [do we just sit back and watch, knowing that we don't have enough money?]? WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO US, OUR GENERATION AND THE FUTURE GENERATIONS IN THE FUTURE? How can you honestly just sit back and not CARE? This is a big deal. Maybe electing the 'right' president might seem liek there it isn't such a huge deal, that this economic failure has been pilin up since the LAST Great Depression? But maybe it is. Maybe McCain or Obama CAN help. CAN make a difference. CAN make things right. how will you know unless we try? You might say "oh well if i dont vote, it wont make a difference. everyone else will". Imagine if half of the country said that.

VOTERS LEGAL AND REGISTERED TO VOTE, VOTE. You vote for who YOU feel is right. Dont get influenced by others; family, friends, teachers, ANYONE. Your opinion is what you should go by.
ROCK THE VOTE.
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.OBAMA '08.
Many people say that Obama's words are merely words. But when was the last time "words" weren't important? When was the last time a great leader didn't use words to lead? When was the last time a person didn't use words to describe how they felt? What they truly believed in? When was the last time "words" weren't empowering?
This is the first time in forever that someone running for president represents "US”.The Obama movement is connecting America. and it has made "US" realize our importance. The youth is excited and activated, the adults are passionate and motivated, the elderly are proud to know the country they built is in safe hands. We always wanted good education, health, safety, economy, jobs…and look at where we are. In a war, having poor education, health programs, inflation, economic failure and debts, polluted environment…We know what happened in the past years. But this is 2008. We are awake. And there is a movement! America can now be united. “United and Standing” for something. We know the power of “US”. We have someone who represents the “U.S”…one who represents “US”.
MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
MAKE A CHANGE.BE A PART OF THIS MOVEMENT.
I am, proud to be an American.
YES. WE. CAN.
YES. WE. CAN.
YES. WE. CAN.
ROCK THE VOTE.
“It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation.Yes we can.It was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail toward freedom.Yes we can.It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores and pioneers who pushed westward against an unforgiving wilderness.Yes we can.It was the call of workers who organized; women who reached for the ballots; a President who chose the moon as our new frontier; and a King who took us to the mountaintop and pointed the way to the Promised Land.Yes we can to justice and equality. Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity. Yes we can heal this nation. Yes we can repair this world. Yes we can. We know the battle ahead will be long, but always remember that no matter what obstacles stand in our way, nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics...they will only grow louder and more dissonant We've been asked to pause for a reality check. We've been warned against offering the people of this nation false hope.But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about hope.Now the hopes of the little girl who goes to a crumbling school in Dillon are the same as the dreams of the boy who learns on the streets of LA; we will remember that there is something happening in America; that we are not as divided as our politics suggests; that we are one people; we are one nation; and together, we will begin the next great chapter in the American story with three words that will ring from coast to coast; from sea to shining sea Yes. We. Can.”
http://edition.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/01/26/obama.transcript/index.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fZHou18Cdk&feature=user

Chapter 1 - Another year, Another regret.

Saturday, September 27, 2008 // 7:48 PM

I’ve been waiting for my dreams to turn into something I could believe in.
I’ve been looking for that magic rainbow on the horizon.
I guess I just couldn’t see it until I let it go.

Have you ever regretted doing something? That all you want as of the present is what you had before you had done that something? Yet if u did not do that something at the time, it would have meant lying to yourself as well as everyone else?

Is this world honestly this complicated, or is it just me? Sometimes, I feel like I cannot just live without SOMETHING in my life being corrupted. Why is it that every time I grasp something worthwhile, I just throw it away carelessly, without thinking? And it always comes back and bites me in the ass. You would think by the eighth time I would get a clue, right? Wrong. I guess I am just that dim-witted. I have a problem. Yes, I am not afraid to admit it. And that problem is my disability of being dependent. My thoughts in my mind works contradictory with each other. On one hand, I love having someone there for me all the time yet spontaneous, someone sweet, someone that can make me laugh, someone that I can DEPEND on, someone to have fun with, someone to talk to, someone to confide in, someone who I can be my, god-forbid, SELF without hiding, rendering, or changing anything; One who I can be/do the same for reciprocally. However, on the other hand, I love INDEPENDENCE, being free from everything and everyone, not able to completely trust another [past], not being able to settle for anything nor anyone, being a party animal. Do I act according to moods? Or do I get myself into something, ruin it, and yearn for it again? Or do I like to sabotage my own life over and over again, whether it be to help another, out of pity? Or is it the unavailability of the word “No” in my vocabulary. Or is it just all of the above?

So now the question is “what to do?” Should I just stop trying now? Is there any hope? You never know what you have until its lost. That’s a phrase that I do NOT find cliche in any way. I been there, and done that multiple times, and still have not learned how to appreciate what I have right in front of me, not when its departing. Is it possible to go back in time without literally doing so? Is it possible to go back to where you started, with the same strength and happiness that it once were? I have been regretting this ever since I have done it, thinking that it would just blow over, like all of my endless list of past regrets. I have never felt this vulnerable, this scared. The thing is that I don’t even know why I am feeling what I am feeling. Maybe part of it is because the past has come back to haunt me. Maybe part of it is because I have always been a big screw-up and this is yet another one on its path and I am afraid to go down that road in this situation. Maybe I am just really afraid of living the rest of my life in regret and loss.

I never knew that I would actually need someone there for me.
That days could feel like years without someone.
That someone’s words could be all I needed to hear to get me through each and everyday.

How more complicated can I be?